Seriously, I love my husband, but when I married him, I had no idea he had Autism. It wasn't as obvious, at first and the whole time I was pregnant, he was gone on his job a lot-3 weeks gone, 1 week home, the whole almost 10 months I was pregnant. It wasn't until after my daughter was born it became more obvious. Then, his oldest sister told me on a visit to come see us and the then baby.

He can be hard to relate to and communicate with. The older I get, the harder it gets and the less patience I have, especially dealing with my troubled child and all of her shit! There are times that I wish I had never gotten married or had my daughter, even though I love them both. But the amount of time and effort I've had to put in while not getting a whole lot back-it makes me feel empty inside, at times.

So there you go. At least you will never feel ANY of that. Feel fortunate, my friend. Sometimes, a relationship and kids are a handful that can be exhausting emotionally and psychologically.