Nightmares suck

[missdiane]

I don't remember dreams all that much and it's been a while since I had a nightmare but damn I had a doozy of one that woke me around 3am and took a while to shake. I was with my brother...possibly my sister but I think she disappeared early and Mom who possibly may have been in a wheelchair and Dad with his memory and processing issues in of all places, NYC. We were in some sort of set of connected buildings that had big glass windows and there were lots of people around.

Somehow I got separated and out of the building to some area that looked like the middle of nowhere and had to walk many blocks back to the "city" to get in and find them again. Then right when I found them, there was some sort of incident. Not sure if there was a shooter in the area or something but people scattered. The brother and mom went off one way and at first Dad and I were together another way until he said we had to hide and we got separated again and for a while I hid under a big desk.

I was most worried about him and I didn't know whether the danger was over yet but I went out from my hiding spot and started trying to look for him. I didn't know if he had his phone on him and knew that he would be confused and not able to communicate well.

I woke up and was all fuzzy headed and agitated. It kept bothering me that even if the police found Dad, he wouldn't be able to communicate well with them so that we could find each other and although I assumed the brother and Mom were ok together (I'm thinking maybe Sis wasn't on the trip?), that they weren't answering their phone (shocker) and Mom doesn't have a phone of her own and wouldn't know how to use it anyway.

Comments

[halfmoon_mollie1]

with all that's gone on in your life, this dream makes perfect sense. Be as gentle as you can be with yourself today.

[missdiane]

Thinking about it more, I thought it was interesting that the Brother and Mom "left" while Sis just "didn't come for the trip" and it was left with me and Dad worrying about each other.

Sis and BIL are still doing ok but she's not as involved on a daily basis as I am. Did I tell you that they're trying to get Dad involved in a BIBLE STUDY group? HAHAHAHAHAHA

[halfmoon_mollie1]

Bible study? OMG. I'd kind of like to see that...

[missdiane]

He's going to indulge them by going to the one this coming Monday but aside from the fact that he has NO interest in bible study, I don't know how they thought he'd want to attend a weekly hour and a half class that starts at 7pm.

I told him if he wants to tell them no, it might be easier if he tells them that it's just too late for him (which it is, by 8pm, he's ready for bed)

[halfmoon_mollie1]

I told him if he wants to tell them no, it might be easier if he tells them that it's just too late for him (which it is, by 8pm, he's ready for bed

okay. But kinda laughed at this, 'too late for him' as if he already knows and isn't going to change. Which I admire.

[vysila]

I'm sorry you had such an awful dream. Worry over your father's situation manifests itself in weird ways. Our brains are strange. Call your dad and relieve your fear, if you can.

[missdiane]

I talk to Dad daily, sometimes multiple times. I think it's subconscious worries about things that I don't have control over. And the thing about the brother and mom was interesting (see response to halfmoon_mollie1)

[vysila]

There sure is a lot you don't have control over right now, so that certainly could be it. I'm glad you are staying in such close contact with your dad.

Huh. Bible studies? Does your sister actually know your father?

[missdiane]

My siblings are rather delusional when it comes to religion especially. We didn't grow up religious and Dad is firmly not interested but he's been going with them to Sunday service just for the nice social interaction. Sis has interpreted that as thinking he can be sucked in. Yeah...not. But she'll just get disappointed again.

[vysila]

I can see she is probably going to pester your father about this, if he does not make his feelings quite clear. And he probably doesn't want to do that.