Life is a combination of magic and pasta.

Forgot to post yesterday or well, do anything but it was a big day - MENOPAUSE DAY! One full year and so it's official! Hopefully as the hormones continue to drop, the fibroid(s) will shrink a little before I get things yoinked out. Fingers crossed.

I cleaned out one shelf of my linen closet and tossed out a ton of stuff that was expired. But then I also gathered most all of the pads that I had randomly stored and I brought them to work and put them in the basement bathroom. There were only five lonely tampons sitting in the basket and the bathroom gets used by students who visit the academic offices upstairs. The basket is now nicely full.

Now my pads at home are more of the ones for bladder issues. lol

I'd gotten complacent that Flo had decided to leave for good but nope. She decided she had nothing better to do for the holidays so she's making things festive. Ugh.

I should have noticed the face breaking out, lower back ache (well, I get that anyway off and on) and the kitties bickering the last couple of days (no, really. they actually start fighting when they sense hormones).

I was going to go out and have dim sum, though I'd have to go someplace different than originally planned since I saw on IG that they're actually closed today. But I have stuff in the freezer so I might just curl up on the couch and vegetate today.

In brighter news, I saved the gift that the coworker got me to have something to open today and holy moly! She got me a vegan leather purse and a couple of necklaces! Dang!

JonJon's got a scratch next to his eye. He's had one there in the past so no clue why that spot is popular. It doesn't appear to be bothering him but it's bothering me. I have put the kitty antiseptic stuff on it so hopefully the doofus leaves it alone so it can heal and we can avoid a vet visit. But it's yet another thing to fret about.

Got the test results from Labcorp a little bit ago and I was right that I wasn't going to like the numbers. I have no clue what is going on. Now my WBC is fine instead of being high but now my RBC is low. My glucose and cholesterol is in the kinda crappy range but it seems to be slightly less crappy than last time. However what really bothers me is that my A1c is 6.6. I usually hover in the range between 5.9 to 6.1 so being in the diabetic range does NOT make me comfortable. I did read that anemia and high triglycerides can cause it to be higher and welp, I seem to have that at the moment. Not that it excuses much.

Guess the doc's suspicion that I'm kind of a disaster right now is accurate. Bah.

Oh, my Vitamin D, folate and B12 are fine. So there's that at least.

I am so pissed off at my body right now. TMI rant under the cut

( ARRRGHHH )

Went to a matinee of Thor Ragnarok yesterday and loved it. So.much.camp. We ate afterwards instead of before like we'd planned at Moe's Southwest and almost immediately after, I felt awful and had to lie down and take alka seltzer when I got home. I even felt run down the rest of the evening. Then I woke about 40 minutes ago with nasty cramps and the business starting early and energetically. Here's hoping that sudden inconsistency is a sign that maybe I'll get to get rid of the monthly business sometime soonish.

Watching a video or two for distraction while I wait for the pain meds to kick in. I dig that "Feel It Still" song out - it has a fun retro vibe and folks have choreographed dances to it with that vibe

So what are your plans for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas?

So far I'll be flying solo on Thanksgiving and likely checking in on the neighbor's kitty. Christmas might likely be the same. Between being unable to get a kittysitter and not really having the money (or inclination, really) to travel, it'll be another year of nothing going. I should try to do something, at least so I'll have to ponder.

I follow my new dermatologist on FB, the one that excised my pre-cancerous mole and will be doing regular checks. She or her admins posted this thing this morning
June 2nd is National Cancer Survivor Day. Shout out to all #melanoma and other cancer survivors out there! You are so strong and amazing!

I wonder. Does my little mole removal count for me as being a "cancer survivor"? Yeah, I do have a scar and when I raise my arm, you can see a pretty darned funky looking dimple but in the grand scheme of things, it's nothing compared to someone that's had real, invasive surgery and/or radiation or chemo. It's so small and I was very lucky to have caught it before it became "real" cancer.

I certainly don't feel brave or at all worthy of any accolades or credit (aside from getting off my pale ass and finally getting checked out). When I saw things like that before, it was foreign to me. Now it's familiar but not.

Don't know if I'm making any sense here. :/