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Annual evaluation time
Apr. 21st, 2026 12:41 pmI had assumed that Boss Josh would feed me a line of bs about supposedly still working to get me an upgrade and I was correct. I let him know that I have no confidence or hopes it will happen after a decade of effort and on top of that the recent rejection that was not handled properly by University HR and down the line (which I put in a statement citing policies and procedures that were not appropriately followed since I want it in the file). I also told him that I know he means well but to please not do the whole "Diane is the EXPERT!!" in our outreach to folks because when they see that I don't have a leadership title though I'm toted as leadership, it's embarrassing. I got the "please let me know about these things" and uh...isn't that what I just did? Not that I said that. I just reiterated that I know he means well but please don't say these things in the future.
I also noted that I didn't think any upgrade was going to happen because when Elaine was going for her promotion, she had special meetings with the Executive Dean and with the head of the Business/Budget/HR office about it and I've not once been asked to attend any meetings with them about anything, much less my position. Not that I particularly WANT to be in meetings but if I'm the "expert" then why have I never been asked to attend and give input? Josh seemed to get that but then said something that well, ticked me off though I kept my mouth shut. He said that if I were to attend a meeting that I should watch how I talk. As if I'm suddenly going to be inappropriate? Uh...dude, I have been professional in every one of the meetings with faculty, meetings with staff, outreach zoom meetings, in person events that we've held. Just because I'm more honest in discussions with YOU, that gives you some indication that I will be some sort of sassy loudmouth with people lateral and above you? The hell?
My suspicion is that the assumption of inappropriate behavior comes from the former boss that was awful to me talking smack. Well if in the year and nearly a half that you've been my boss and witnessed my interactions with these sorts of audiences hasn't convinced you otherwise, then I'm done bothering making effort. I didn't tell him this because again, why bother? It'll have zero effect in any positive way.
If either a better job offer comes around or when I reach retirement eligibility, I find a nice lower stress job in the private sector, don't be surprised if I quietly leave without much notice. In the meantime, I'm going to do my work as exactly described, placidly smile and nod and not assert myself, not make promises of anything above my level.
I also noted that I didn't think any upgrade was going to happen because when Elaine was going for her promotion, she had special meetings with the Executive Dean and with the head of the Business/Budget/HR office about it and I've not once been asked to attend any meetings with them about anything, much less my position. Not that I particularly WANT to be in meetings but if I'm the "expert" then why have I never been asked to attend and give input? Josh seemed to get that but then said something that well, ticked me off though I kept my mouth shut. He said that if I were to attend a meeting that I should watch how I talk. As if I'm suddenly going to be inappropriate? Uh...dude, I have been professional in every one of the meetings with faculty, meetings with staff, outreach zoom meetings, in person events that we've held. Just because I'm more honest in discussions with YOU, that gives you some indication that I will be some sort of sassy loudmouth with people lateral and above you? The hell?
My suspicion is that the assumption of inappropriate behavior comes from the former boss that was awful to me talking smack. Well if in the year and nearly a half that you've been my boss and witnessed my interactions with these sorts of audiences hasn't convinced you otherwise, then I'm done bothering making effort. I didn't tell him this because again, why bother? It'll have zero effect in any positive way.
If either a better job offer comes around or when I reach retirement eligibility, I find a nice lower stress job in the private sector, don't be surprised if I quietly leave without much notice. In the meantime, I'm going to do my work as exactly described, placidly smile and nod and not assert myself, not make promises of anything above my level.
