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Depression is a sneaky little bastard
Jan. 8th, 2024 09:27 amI thought I was just burned out but honestly, my work productiveness has been for absolute shit lately. I mean how can you be burned out when you're slacking? Or can you?
But even on the weekends, I can't do "relaxing" things much either. I used to zone out playing Sims and can't be bothered. Since Dad likes it so much and Sis is doing it, I tried coloring (I got a Pusheen coloring book since it's simple and cute) and so far I'm not a fan. I find it difficult with pressing the colored pencils so I've ordered some markers to see if I like that more. I can't read, can barely concentrate long enough to watch even a 5 minute video of anything. I do enjoy investigating genealogy but even that is in short bursts before I have to stop. Sleeping also is choppy and not very deep.
Sounds a lot like depression. I figure it had to come sometime but the type that's mostly numbness is harder to spot until you're practically non-functional.
I'm also overeating and eating sweets even though I'm not particularly a big fan of them anymore. That I need to get under control since I need to not make my physical health any worse. Especially since the thought of going to the doctor or hospital when I've heard they're overrun right now (mask up, folks!) is something that makes the depression stumble into some anxiety.
I'll try the SAD light since I know where it is in the clutter pile that is the bedroom. I'm suspecting it's far more than just seasonal so I'll keep an eye on things.
I know a lot of us have the "winter blues" so I hope you're recognizing and trying to battle it. I can't do yoga but I'm thinking I need to try tai chi again and if there's such thing as five minute meditation, need to try that too. What are you guys doing?
But even on the weekends, I can't do "relaxing" things much either. I used to zone out playing Sims and can't be bothered. Since Dad likes it so much and Sis is doing it, I tried coloring (I got a Pusheen coloring book since it's simple and cute) and so far I'm not a fan. I find it difficult with pressing the colored pencils so I've ordered some markers to see if I like that more. I can't read, can barely concentrate long enough to watch even a 5 minute video of anything. I do enjoy investigating genealogy but even that is in short bursts before I have to stop. Sleeping also is choppy and not very deep.
Sounds a lot like depression. I figure it had to come sometime but the type that's mostly numbness is harder to spot until you're practically non-functional.
I'm also overeating and eating sweets even though I'm not particularly a big fan of them anymore. That I need to get under control since I need to not make my physical health any worse. Especially since the thought of going to the doctor or hospital when I've heard they're overrun right now (mask up, folks!) is something that makes the depression stumble into some anxiety.
I'll try the SAD light since I know where it is in the clutter pile that is the bedroom. I'm suspecting it's far more than just seasonal so I'll keep an eye on things.
I know a lot of us have the "winter blues" so I hope you're recognizing and trying to battle it. I can't do yoga but I'm thinking I need to try tai chi again and if there's such thing as five minute meditation, need to try that too. What are you guys doing?
